KC&T Records-Kendra Goodson, Betty Wally, Taylor Irving, Keala Walsh and Desiderium Mortem

Lyrics

[Intro] (spoken word)
[whispers, distant laughter, rustle of people shifting in seats]
(…you there?)
(…yeah)
(…is this it?)
[soft hush, like a room holding its breath]

[Verse 1]
I dreamed I died
On a Tuesday, I think
Face down in the grass
Breath folding in on itself
Clouds moved slow
Like they’d been waiting
Somebody called my name
From very far away

[Chorus]
If this is the way I go
I don’t mind, I don’t mind
Heart like a door
Already open wide
Every goodbye
Falling soft this time
If this is the way I go
I don’t mind, I don’t mind

[Verse 2]
No sirens, no flashing
Just my body
Getting lighter by degrees
Words floated
Out of mouths I couldn’t see
Every voice
Sounded almost
Almost like me

[Chorus]
If this is the way I go
I don’t mind, I don’t mind
Names that I wore
Sliding off like tide
Every regret
Turning into light
If this is the way I go
I don’t mind, I don’t mind

[Bridge]
[reverb swells, then sudden dry vocal]
I thought I’d be afraid
I wasn’t
I thought I’d beg for time
I didn’t
I only had one thought
One clear line:
“Remember this ease
Next time you’re alive”

[Chorus]
If this is the way I go
I don’t mind, I don’t mind
Weight of the world
Fading from my spine
You on the shore
Waving one last time
If this is the way I go
I don’t mind, I don’t mind

[Outro]
[barely audible crowd murmur]
(you let me go)
(…and I was fine)